Moot Thoughts & Musings

Yesterday I had my first midwife appt. Hee, hee. I know, at 16 weeks. Second child and all that.

I'm pretty excited. Chris and Ellis came, and we all got to here the heartbeat. She gave Ellis the Doppler to hold so he could feel the heartbeat, and we did our best to explain to him that it was the baby's. He was quiet and thoughtful as he held it.

It's kind of a relief. Sometimes I start to wonder, did I make up this pregnancy? (despite all the signs that I didn't, including the fact that I'm only wearing maternity clothes at this point) When I stop feeling permanently nauseous, but haven't started feeling the baby move a lot, it's hard to believe sometimes. I think I do feel a flutter here and there, but no regular movements yet.

And it felt validating to have the midwife poke around and say "nice pregnant uterus." It's for real! It also felt validating to be able to have a good discussion concerning dates (I do sort of chart after all), and be on the same page regarding my due date.

I'm really excited about this place. It makes me feel like a real person.