I'm cranky
I'm leaving soon to go to the airport, but I'm super cranky.
I recently had a conversation with someone after which I felt like my love for music was misunderstoond and undermined. I guess the passion is still there after all these years. Anyway, I felt like old presuppositions were dragged out and put my arms behind my back. It was frustrating, and has put me in a sour mood. I was feeling excited and enervated before, but then it fell flat. It just totally wasn't what I needed to hear right before I go to my defense. That's I why I needed to blog about it. I just have to get it out of my system, because ultimately it's the stupidest thing ever and I'm doubly frustrated by the fact that I'm so distressed. Because the conversation honestly wasn't that big of a deal. I'm actually crying. I feel like such a loser!
Anyway, I'm trying to decide whether I should use my remaining time before I go to the airport to make a nice meal or to sleep. I think I need both equally. I'll probably go eat. Adrenalin will probably inhibit my sleep.
Here's to good travels!
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Aww, it's perfectly normal to feel distressed and unnerved before something as big as a defense.
God gives us our loves and desires including your love for music--and even though we may be called at different times in our lives to act differently our desires--maybe even sometimes to sacrifice what we want for what's best for others--the love/passion for something is still a gift.
Call anytime you need a pep talk!!
Posted by: Jo | March 13, 2007 02:15 PM
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Oh dear... I know it's no big deal, but it's hard to rationally tell yourself and your feelings that. We feel what we need to feel and that can't really be changed. I've felt the same way countless times. It will pass.
I hope you have a peaceful trip and defense. Congratulations in advance, dear!! I'm very happy for you!
Posted by: Lilian | March 13, 2007 11:52 PM