Moot Thoughts & Musings

...you have a nightmare about missing a guest lecturer. It's true. Last night I woke in a cold sweat around 4.30 am after a vivd dream that X-super-famous-scholar was giving a paper on one of my favorite topics, and I was confused about the time and place and just missed the paper. In my dream I was sobbing uncontrollably.

This is not the only strange dream I've had. (You know you're tired and it's the end of the semester when you start blogging about your dreams.) Recently, I had a dream that I did something little like moved a board or pushed a button at a construction site, and this small action caused several of the construction workers to die. I got convicted of manslaughter and put in prison for life without parole. (And, of course, it didn't occur to me in my dream that it was probably the construction company's fault for having such a high-risk situation that my moving a board would cause people to die.) I wasn't sobbing in this dream, just devastated that I had caused death to people. However, stronger feelings about my lost career prevailed. I remember thinking, "now I won't get to go to Italy to the archives next summer."

So maybe the meaning of my dreams is...You know you're in grad school when you start having nightmares about irrevocably missed opportunities.

Or something else...You know you're in grad school when you listen to Berio's Sinfonia and wonder what's so experimental about it.

*sigh* I'm tired. Get me some pizza.